i'm leaving on a jetplane...

I BOOKED MY TICKET TO JACKSONVILLE! i can't believe everything is happening now! i think my mom is kinda freaking out. but to be honest, i'm freaking out too. i'm, of course, super excited. but i can't help but be a little afraid of the unknown. biggest fear: i can't find a job, and i end up having to crawl back to Big Timber crying, in a fit of rage and failure. ugh, just thinking of that makes me wanna cry. let's hope i don't need to go through that one!

my bestest friend, caitlin, is leaving for Ireland for a semester abroad soon, and i already miss her. we haven't lived in the same town for over a year now, but even when she was in school in North Dakota, we had it planned out that the longest we went without seeing eachother was about a month and a half/2 months. now, she's going to be in another country for 5 months, and i'm leaving right after she does. who knows when we'll get to see eachother again!

that's another thing that kinda scares me: finding friends. i've had such great friends in MT thus far, that i can't imagine leaving every one of them behind to start anew in a new state. i shouldn't be scared. but i can't help it.

like i said earlier, my flight has been booked for Jan. 12th. it's just a one way, so who knows when i'll come back. i'm not taking my car down there, cause my uncle has 2 vehicles, and he said i could borrow one. i'm hoping i can just walk/use public transit as much as possible, but we'll have to see about that. if/when i want my car, my parents will drive it to wherever i choose to continue to live, and bring me all my other stuff (bed, dresser, etc.) also. i can't believe this is all happening!

phew, now that that's out of my system....must go get started with my day.